Macaque feels small and sad. He feels like complete hell in every way. Being in Lucifer's arms helps a little, but nothing can truly help right now.
"Yeah. I'm not sure I can do the mental gymnastics to see MK as my peer when he's with Wylan, while I see Wylan as a kid. It seems like something big would have to change in my mind, and I just don't know. It's all making my head spin, and I miss MK terribly." Even though it's only been a few hours.
"I was just saying how happy I was. It's like I cursed myself."
Macaque chokes back a light sob. He's a disaster right now. "I don't know what would be harder or easier. All I know is that everything feels impossible, and I want there to be some solution that will let MK stay my mate. But I can't see one."
Re: January 4th
"Yeah. I'm not sure I can do the mental gymnastics to see MK as my peer when he's with Wylan, while I see Wylan as a kid. It seems like something big would have to change in my mind, and I just don't know. It's all making my head spin, and I miss MK terribly." Even though it's only been a few hours.
"I was just saying how happy I was. It's like I cursed myself."
Macaque chokes back a light sob. He's a disaster right now. "I don't know what would be harder or easier. All I know is that everything feels impossible, and I want there to be some solution that will let MK stay my mate. But I can't see one."