Saya nods as her eyes spill over. She's less fully crying than just shedding tears.
"A while, yes. After my hibernation cycle was stopped, everyone was on a high. Then my closest friend vanished, and two of my romantic partners. One I saw on the street not long ago... he looked right through me. He didn't remember who I was." A sick reversal of her life.
"And Red Son figured that my Chevalier might be still alive, but I can't get to him. And ever since I was told that, the walls of my memories are cracking open. I found out that I had to kill my twin sister not once, but three times, on three different worlds. All of my memories are of me hurting people. That's all I seem to do."
"And then everything with Porty happened, and MK's heart game... well, you saw everything didn't you? I messed up. I was walking through that game like an open wound because I thought keeping my walls up would hurt MK, but it made me too emotional. I destroyed that doll of Wukong and it almost led to MK being destroyed."
She shakes her head. "I feel like this is my punishment for wanting to defy fate. Like maybe I'm going bad like Porty did because I was never meant to be awake and keep my memories for this long."
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Date: 2024-10-10 04:10 pm (UTC)"A while, yes. After my hibernation cycle was stopped, everyone was on a high. Then my closest friend vanished, and two of my romantic partners. One I saw on the street not long ago... he looked right through me. He didn't remember who I was." A sick reversal of her life.
"And Red Son figured that my Chevalier might be still alive, but I can't get to him. And ever since I was told that, the walls of my memories are cracking open. I found out that I had to kill my twin sister not once, but three times, on three different worlds. All of my memories are of me hurting people. That's all I seem to do."
"And then everything with Porty happened, and MK's heart game... well, you saw everything didn't you? I messed up. I was walking through that game like an open wound because I thought keeping my walls up would hurt MK, but it made me too emotional. I destroyed that doll of Wukong and it almost led to MK being destroyed."
She shakes her head. "I feel like this is my punishment for wanting to defy fate. Like maybe I'm going bad like Porty did because I was never meant to be awake and keep my memories for this long."